I am so scared of varsity.
I don’t know if I’ll be able to fit in and make my own friends because usually I just tag along with Kali’s friends which is not embarrassing at all. They always talk about dating and sex and some more dating and that’s not what I wanna talk about. I want people with similar interests to mine, I want to talk about movies music, books, Kpop idols, bls and what herbs I can mix together to get something that will fix my headaches and whatever else I can think about that is not me getting penetrated by some guy in the back of his parents car. I don’t care if that what they want it’s just not me.
My siblings are so excited though. This is a chance for them to leave the pack for a while and run wild and be free and to do all kinds of debauchery things.
I on the other hand suck! So hard that I’m willing to ask for help, and I never ask for help. This is my chance to actually come out of my fucken shell as my sister so kindly puts it. And if my wolf could talk she’d be agreeing. Which is why I have started writing a list of the things I want done before the end of my first year at Durban University, which won’t be a problem if I keep things on a down low, you know under the radar.
“What are hiding under the radar? Are you a spy?. Oh my god! Are you seeing someone finally” my sister Kali squeals like the girl she is.
Guess I said my last thoughts out loud. I do that a lot when I’m stressed.
“No, unfortunately for you I’m not. And please get your grabby hands off my clothes” I yank my tank top from her. She rolls her eyes at me but continues to rummage through the pile of clothes on my bed. “Have you packed? have you talked to Kaze? is he all done packing?”
“Uhg you’re such a mom, we still have time so stop asking me so many questions” she picks up another pink tee, sniffs it then places it under her arm.
“I’m not a mom, get out! We have about an hour before we have to leave” I throw a random cloth I can get which happens to be a pair of jeans which she easily catches because of course.
“You bitch! I could have been hurt then I’d have to undergo a surgery then I’d miss my first day at school then I’d be a loser and a lone wolf and when I finally make it there because everyone would have already made friends by then” she frails her arms like the drama queen she is.
“Just go pack you maniac” I say ignoring her dramatic antics. Lone wolf my ass.
We should have done everything yesterday but Kaze wanted us to say a proper goodbye to our friends therefore he invited everyone he considered a friend in the pack which turned out to be almost everyone because he said if he invited one person and left the other then other people will feel left out. He is a people pleaser like that.
And that’s how we ended up with a house full of people which we ended up having to entertain until the early hours on the night. I hope dad doesn’t find out this time.
I sigh, push out my bags then walk over to his room. I knock but he doesn’t answer which might be because he is hung over as fuck. He is still not used to alcohol because we only turned 18 two months ago and dad made sure we didn’t have a drop of alcohol before that not that my siblings didn’t try.
I push open the door to Kaze’s room and met with a ranched smell that makes my eyes water. You’d think because his sense of smell is strong since he is a wolf then he’d clean more. No luck there.
“For fucks sake do you ever clean this room, it smells like ass in here” I say covering my nose with my hand. He shifts from his position in the bed turning to see that its me then going back to sleep.
“I could have been naked you know” his voice comes out muffled.
“Like I care. Why are you not ready yet, we have to leave in less than an hour you know”
“Shit I totally forgot” he sits up then runs his hand through his tangled hair which seems painful. “do it for me I’ll owe you one” he gives me puppy dog eyes but he seems to have forgotten that his pleading eyes don’t have the desired effect on me. And the fact that they look red and drowsy doesn’t help his case.
“You already owe me more than one dude, I’m not packing for you. Get up, take a shower we have to leave I don’t like being late”